sin/cos

I'm Back!

2009-12-18T12:19:00.006+11:00

Hey peeps! Sorry for the long hiatus. Now that I will have time in Perth, nothing to do, nobody to see that leaves plenty of time to blog! lol.

Just came back from arguebly the best week of my life. Torquay 09. I will do a post that does justice to this week incl pics once the net is up.

Leeching friends net atm. must be quick.

So the year is finally truly over. Congrats to everyone for finishing year 12 and recieving your Enter. Here's hoping you get into the course you desire.

Been embarking on a quest to find where I stand in terms my faith, ethics and what I want to achieve in life with whatever course at uni I want to do. Epic fail so far. Couldn't even summon the strength to wake up in time for church, temple, open days and what not. Still trying.

I will elaborate at some later date.

Anyway, I got to go catch my flight. Hopefully I will see you guys later.

Enjoy this vid of Nav and me covering The Fray for fun. I will dedicate it to Tienyi for her heartfelt attempt at abstract writing just to prove me wrong (stick with your own style that is uniquely you!) . It took us 1 hour to learn and record so please dont expect to much. ps. gotta love nav's spaz attacks when he gets into it.

Fragility of life

2009-10-21T22:06:00.006+11:00

It's amazing how something so beautiful can be lost so quickly. We are not invincible anymore nor are we immortal.

Do you still remember the time when we thought that we could live forever? Well we don't. I think this simple fact of life has finally hit home for many of us.

I remember seeing countless photos of and articles teens dieing or getting seriously injured in crashes or brawls year after year to the point I became desensitized. It could never happen to me or anyone I know I thought. However, when it actually happens to one of us it is like the world has turned its eye on us, waiting for us to react. It is as if all the human emotions of love, hate, anger, confusion and fear are blended into one potent cocktail and downed in one gulp.

18 years of joy, pain, memories, hopes and dreams can be instantly wiped into oblivion by a car accident or random act of violence. It is truly tragic beyond comprehension.

Seriously buddy, I will be praying for you to make a full and speedy recovery. I remember being in awe when spotting for you while you benched 80kg, but now it is the time for you to show us how strong you really are. It never should have happened but all we can do now is hope for the best.

Take care of yourselves everyone, treasure everything that is truly important and good luck for the exams!

p.s Lol at Avila ;)

童话

2009-10-07T00:11:00.001+11:00

Hey people. Yesterday I was adamant that I was going to study for the economics and chemistry sacs and subsequently ace them. However, I laid eyes on my guitar and against my will started playing it. Before long I learnt this cute Asian song that people sang at kbox in the holidays. lol. Hope you will enjoy it.

Sometimes we need to believe in fairy tales...

P.S I'm not turning soft, I think I have always been a bit of a sensi (scrubs is the best show ever!) but have been too afraid to show it.

secret

2009-10-01T20:10:00.000+10:00

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远,

You tell me to gradually let go so we can move on,

又何必去改变已错过的时间,

Why bother changing the past?

想像你在身边在完全失去之前,

I imagine you by my side before I lose you forever,

飘落后我才发现这幸福的碎片

It is only after the fragments of my happiness have fallen do I realise,

要我怎麽捡

How do I pick them up?

-Jay Chou "不能说的秘密"

Happyness

2009-09-28T18:31:00.000+10:00

A missionary came up to me yesterday on the train in the city. He was an Asian American from California, probably in his late twenties. At first I was annoyed when he tried converting me to Christianity. lol. After a while he kinda gave up and we just chatted about life.

He told me before "finding god" he only pursued momentary happiness such as nightclubs, drinking, fast cars, gaming etc. However, after the adrenalin quickly wore off and an empty void followed. As if something was missing. In consequence he has voluntarily "sacrificed" 2 years of his life to come to Melbourne to do missionary work. This means no distractions (music, fun) whatsoever for two years. Daily as he tried to preach the word of god he would receive abuse, violence ,judgmental glares and even be spit upon from the people he crosses paths with on the street. Rather than become depressed, god has given him the strength to hold his head high and walk on.

Although i did not agree with everything he said, to be able to go against all of society to follow something that he truly believed in, he won my respect and admiration.

And in some ways I could relate. Many times I have drooled over material goods only to go "meh" after laying my grubby hands it. Many times I have reached a goal then thought "now what?".

Has capitalist society really become a place where we are all willing to step on others on our way to the top of the ladder? Do individuals have inherent moral virtue or are our actions determined solely by greed and fear of condemnation or god?

Most importantly of all, can we find true happiness and fulfillment on our own accord or do we have to believe in what some would call an illusion?

p.s sorry for the mass rhetorical questions. i promise to start answering instead of asking soon

Theme of Love

2009-09-25T23:16:00.000+10:00

For the times I couldn't tell you how I feel, because music speaks louder than words...

On a completely different note: Thanks Ken for organizing Karaoke! Finally let my inner Asian diva free. woot.

Hope

2009-09-16T16:26:00.000+10:00

"Remember Red, hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies."

Your friend.

(The Shawshank Redemption)

Courage

2009-09-10T23:14:00.000+10:00

Have you ever considered how you would react when faced with an extraordinary situation? If a terrorist held up a gun and threatened to hijack the plane you are on would you:

a. Jump his ass and show him who is boss and save the lives of everyone on board. (Likely get shot and killed)

b. pretend to be oblivious to the situation and carry on reading the safety pamphlet; or

c. pray to god somebody else is gonna risk their life to save your sorry ass

I like to think that I have the courage and strength to choose option A, but when it comes down to it most people are gonna choose B or C. Why?

Well why should you risk their life for people you don't even know? At most the media labels you a hero for a day, week at most. But your family, friends and children will suffer forever. Am I right to assume we are selfish beings despite our best intentions?

What constitutes courage? When Edmund Hillary embarked on the first accent of Mt. Everest was he courageous or just insane to risk his life, career and his family's future? When the three astronauts in 1969 left for the moon did they ever consider what if they never returned? These men were successful. Many were not.

What is it that drives these people to overcome fear? Where do we draw the line between courage and stupidity?

I don't think anybody can answer these questions. However, I feel sometimes as individuals we need to step out of line once every so often, put down that safety pamphlet, and as the poet Robert Frost wrote, take the path less traveled by and sometimes that can make all the difference.

wow that was deep :)

First Post

2009-09-06T12:40:00.000+10:00

Hi guys, this is my first post so be nice. I'm a bit nervous losing my blogging virginity. I'd never thought it would come to this but here we go.

Its 2 months from my final english exam and I thought if I start blogging my English proficiency will magically increase to A+ levels. What was that? I'm in denial?

Anyways I think i should have a little introduction of myself.

Hobbies and Interests:

1. Music. In terms of genres believe I am quite open minded, I love listening to alternative, progressive, some metal, some pop, some country, instrumental, classical rock, classical, orchestral music and jazz. Basically anything that sounds good. Which means not all that screamo crap and rap/hip hop bullshit that gets released these days by those non talented blah blah blah....

Fav bands and artists include Tommy Emmanuel, Nightwish, Dreamtheater, Fourplay, Hanz Zimmer, Craig Armstrong, The Fray, U2, Oasis, RHCP, Nobuo Uematsu and Michael Jackson (rip). Don't judge me.

I also play the guitar just well enough to get laid. Apparently most girls lose control by the second verse of Wonderwall. lol just joking, but not really. I mostly play my trusty Yamaha steel stringed acoustic but i occasionally whip out the Les Paul for a few licks and solos. I might post a few videos later on.

2. Sports. I love playing football (as in the spherical ball variety, sorry AFL people). Ill prob get back into to it full on after year 12. Pretending to know how to play tennis is also fun. I also try keep fit by running and working out. But I'm getting old so yeah.

3. Science, Mathematics, Philosophy and Religion

Woot go science and by science I mean physics and a bit of chemistry. Prob the only half certain thing in this world. Mathematics is also so definite and universal. Just beautiful. (P.S I know I'm a nerd and I'm proud of it) :)

In terms of philosophy I like reading up on Immanuel Kant, Taosim, Confucianism, Descartes etc. etc. It helps me rationalize and put the complex world we live in into some sort of perspective.

As for religion, I find it fascinating. What makes people believe so wholeheartedly in a man/woman they have never met or at least seen on TV?

I only practice religion when getting my exam marks back or doing something important. lol that doesn't count does it? If i had to pin it down I would say I am agnostic. But I am open minded.

4. Thinking about Philosophy

Yeah its trippy. But awesome.

5. A bit of politics. As in the history aspect of it, not the daily mudslinging most modern politicians get up to.

As you can see I'm quite a simple person. Easily amused and pleased. Yet, also able to explore the great reaches of human imagination and wisdom (to a certain degree).

Anyway I hope you have not left already or fell asleep. But yeah this is a brief intro of me and things to come.